Sunday, January 9, 2011
Pregnancy Update - 30 weeks - COUNTDOWN!!!
1) LABOR. I'm not very good at it. After Eadie (natural) right now all I can think is the word EPIDURAL over and over in my mind. But I have a copy of the book "Hypnobirthing" and I stare at it in my hands and desperately want to read it in the hope it will give me confidence to do this naturally again... while in the same thought I am terrified the book will convince me to actually GO NATURAL and I just don't trust myself to follow through with it and then it will be too late to get the epidural and I'll have to go through it all over again!! ARGH! And then I begin to panic and I put the book down not daring to open it up.. So yeah, not looking forward to THAT...
2) My hair falling out... it has grown a lot since my last baby and both Juan and I are not looking forward to the strands that will inevitably be strewn all over the shower, bed and carpet.... Sorry babe!
3) Feeding - Anyone who knows my history with this will understand why I have concerns. Nevertheless I plan to try again and see how we go this time. Although as a confident bottle-feeding mother of two, I am pretty sure I will have a bottle on hand just in case.
4) Toddler jealousy - I was worried about this with Tori, but she surprised me by being the perfect big sister to our new little addition. This time we have Eadie as the toddler of the house.... part of me is not worried at all. She is proving to us that she loves little babies and apart from the time she scratched poor 8 month old Olivia on the side of her nose, and that time she hit her over the head, that she is very gentle and loving toward them. So I am sure it will be fine.... But with Eadie you never quite know.....
Apart from all that, I have Sciatic pains in my upper legs; an hereditary condition given to me by my mum... thanks. It seems to be getting worse as the weeks pass. Cassandra and I haven't been to Aqua class in a few weeks due to the weather and holidays, so I'm not sure if the lack of exercise has anything to do with it or if the condition is just inevitable... not fun to say the least anyway.